Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Damn, I Missed It

Two whole years of not drinking a fifth of straight whiskey with beer chasers every night, as of yesterday.

I have heard people say that I had a drinking problem.
This would be factually incorrect, I drank everything I could get my hands on.

I do have to admit that since I quit drinking that I have turned into a boring dude though.

I used to be crazier than a shit house rat when I was lit up.

You wouldn't believe some of the shit I've pulled and if they made a movie of my life people would swear it was made up. At one point, I had gone through 29 cars in ten years. Wrecked every single one of them, some more than once and some were done for the first shot. I know I've totaled at least fifteen. That doesn't even begin to include all the motorcycle wrecks. I can't count those.

Of course I don't remember a lot of it but there are plenty of folks who do and are probably glad I gave it up finally.

There isn't a doubt in my mind that I should have been dead at least twenty times over. I figure The Good Lord must have some reason for me to still be here after all that.

Maybe to be an example to the rest of you not to be that guy? Who knows.

I'm still kickin' though, finally found a good woman who will put up with my crazy ass and who keeps me in line when I need it, to a point. She is the main reason I gave it up, all at once.

There isn't any need for congratulations or any of that shit,trust me when I say that there are times when I would really like to throw down a couple of shots or a couple of ice cold beers.

I know what would happen though and I can't do that anymore.

Very bad things would start happening again and I have put myself, my friends and my entire family through enough shit over the years.

Hopefully I can keep my shit together and my nose clean because my guts keep telling me that there are very bad things coming and I need to have my wits about me. I trust my instincts and they have been screaming at me for some time now.

I have other people to worry about and take care of as it should be, not the other way around.

One thing is certain, my eyes and my ears are open to current events and goings on and you can bet your ass I have an opinion.

Just keep coming back and I will give it to you on a regular basis, free of charge.


Sixbears said...

Good for you, just the same. Plenty of alcoholics in my family. I like to drink good booze so make sure to make it a sometimes thing instead of a daily or even weekly thing. When I think I can sing it's time to stop.

stevierayv said...

Continue on brother!

Stackz O Magz said...

I admire your willingness to continue on your path of sobriety man. I've had my demons too and learned to conquer them as well. I am fortunate too because I've got that ride or die woman in my life as well. When I'd tend to get out there a bit with the Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde part of my personality, she was always loving to both and I think that's what saved me. I've learned since I've gotten older that I'm incredibly allergic to narcotics. They make me break out in hand cuffs....

idahobob said...

You may not want congratulations, but here it is.....CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!

Life us soooooo much better now, sober, that when fucked up all of the time.

I know.

Keep on keepin' on, brother!


Xenolith said...

I often wonder where I'd be today if I had beat my own demons earlier than I did. Its the love of a good woman, indeed, that makes the difference.
Very glad to know the man you are, Phil!

ShortWoman said...

Awesome, man. Keep up the good work.

DoninSacto said...

And we who enjoy your rants are grateful you are still with us.

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